Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Dear Friend: The Gift

Dear Friend,

The gift came without asking, taking me by surprise. I found myself reflected back in your eyes, trusting myself to believe.

I stand strong while accepting a vulnerability I haven't allowed before. I believe in myself again, calm in the eye of the storm knowing I can survive any possible future.

I am now capable of loving unconditionally and letting go when it's time. I never thought I could hold space for another without fear of losing myself. You gave me a safe place to love you quickly and fully while keeping my boundaries in view.

You gave me the gift of your honesty, openness, the raw passion of being. Though our time is fleeting and soon to be a fading memory, the gift of seeing myself through you will endure forever.




Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Dear Friend: Make Room

Dear Friend,

Make room. Make room in your life for happiness, laughter and joy. Make room to feel sorrow, and the ability to let it go when you are ready. Make room for what you need, what you want, what you desire.

 My friend, I know it has been too long since you have taken care of yourself, you are always there for others first. You pride yourself on being the strong one, on being the best friend/family member you can be. Others have always leaned on you, even when you were struggling to stand up tall. You knew you could carry the burden, you could handle the pain.

Make room for someone to share your trials, tribulations and most of all your happiness. When you have shut everyone out for so long, it can seem impossible to change those habits that feel hardened into stone.

You have put aside your dreams and desires despite the sacrifice necessary to keep your happiness at bay. You
have paid the price in lost friendships, broken romance, and forgotten opportunities. You tell yourself it's easier to keep your distance, you know how to stand alone. 

Make room to breath. You are afraid to clear out a space, afraid it will stay empty. Afraid the walls will echo, and the space will be filled with more pain.

Make room in your life for all of this. You are sad and heartbroken because you can't see your way to happiness, though it's simple. You  have so little time to yourself, so little time to regroup and recharge. You are afraid the time you have set aside will be gone, and you will spend it trying to please yet another person.

Make room my friend, you will find that you can fill it with whatever you want, even a resounding joy that has been missing in your song.

You yearn for that person you can lean on, who will catch you when you fall. Despite that, you push away those that would hold your hand in the night, wipe away your tears without judgment. You feel you cannot trust anyone but yourself, others have always let you down.

My friend, I am here to hold your hand, wipe away your tears, and stand strong by your side. You only need to ask.





Dear Friend: Come Back to Me

Dear Friend,

I wish you didn't have to go, I want to be selfish and keep you by my side until the next sunrise. We talked about the past and the future, as if we had all the time in the world. The end was here before the beginning took shape; leaving us yearning for more time, more touch, more breath.

The appetite of what we shared melts my heart. We gave our truth without remorse, our souls touched while our bodies entwined. Your being fit into mine with such ease and comfort, like it was meant to be. Our time together was filled with wonder and surprise like a unexpected gift from a stranger.


Come back to me when you are ready for a safe place to relax after braving all the world's pain. We will hold hands and talk about better times, those we shared together.



Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Dear Friend: I Found God

Dear Friend,

I found God in the face of a lost child, searching for the truth in her Mother's voice. She listened closely and reached out to touch the hand that had slipped from hers.

I found God in the eyes of a homeless man, looking for comfort from the bitter cold. He wandered away wearing his coat like a robe of broken dreams.

I found God in the voice of a stranger. They told me a story of fear and loss overcome; they hid their sorrow behind a park bench for a beggar to find. 

I found God in my lover's arms. He caught me as I fell for him, pulling me into his chest where I could hear his heart beating.

I found God in the cry of a hawk searching for it's next prey. The world is for those that wish to grab ahold and take charge of their destiny.

I found God in my darkest hour.  He was here with me, keeping the space for me to heal and mend. 

I found God.




Saturday, May 6, 2017

Dear Friend: Let Your Light Shine Through

Dear Friend,

Let your light shine through. Walk with dignity and pride, leaving a wake of kindness in your path. Your inner beauty is always there, glimmering like a star through the clouds. 

By sharing your grace you can influence others, creating a happier place with just a smile. You don't know how powerful you really are, though others can sense it from a distance. 

Shine with the love you carry in your heart, open your arms and share it. Can you feel it? You have such an impact on the world, creating a window into a future that sings with happiness.

There will be times when you need to recharge and return to solitude, that is a healthy way to create your own sacred space. Keep your center as you walk through the world, and others will follow. You don't need to do anything; be yourself. 

Let your light shine through my friend, bring grace, beauty and love into the world by just being you.


Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Dear Friend: Remind Me

Dear Friend,

Remind me why I chose you, you played along with smiley faces and hand puppets made from dirty socks. I created a space for you, you filled it with darkness and empty promises.

Remind me why I gave you my heart though I wasn't sure you would keep it safe. When I broke free, I discovered you had kept it hidden behind the dresser as a souvenir of our time together.

Remind me why I said no. No more of your inconsistent attention, broken promises and shattered dreams. You hung your victories on the wall like trophies of battles won.

Remind me how I broke free from your iron grip, only to fall back into your clutches again and again. When I finally walked away, you cheerfully waved good bye as if I was only leaving the room.

Remind me why I cried for love lost, love never found. You shared a small part of your heart with me, but kept the best for yourself.

Now, I chose myself over you.
Remind me.......








Sunday, April 16, 2017

Dear Friend: Lean In

Dear Friend,

Lean in and put your head on my shoulder. Gain comfort knowing that I will always be there for you. I wish I could give you everything you need and want, I will do my best to give you happiness and security.

I will hold your hand, and reassure you when you are feeling down. Nothing lasts forever, and these hard times will pass as well. You are stronger than you know, just breathe and believe.

Lean in and listen while I whisper tales of better times, loving friends, and rainbows painted with vibrant colors. Forget about your fears for a moment, dream big!

I will give you my best, and help you break through the doors keeping you from your greatest joy. The challenges we face create growth, however painful they may seem at the time. The other side is a bolder world, a new stronger you.

Lean in my friend, I have your back.




Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Dear Friend: I Forgive You

Dear Friend,

I forgive you for not being your best. You have been through so much, and you haven't grown from the trauma of past hurts.

I forgive you for hurting me. You couldn't see beyond your own pain to give anyone else the love and acceptance you craved.

I forgive you for being lost, alone and scared. Though you may never admit it, you can't accept weakness in yourself or others.

I forgive you for keeping your secrets. I know how hard it is to trust, you couldn't see beyond those that had broken your confidence in the past.

I forgive you for keeping your distance. I could see right through you, and that can be scary.

I forgive you, I hope you find your way back. 



Dear Friend: I Hold My Head Up

Dear Friend,

I hold my head up and tell you what I have achieved, the look of respect is better than pity. I don't mention what it took to get here, the struggles you can't comprehend. I don't want to see charity or even worse, disbelief when I try to explain why it's so hard to get out of bed some days.

I tell you I feel fine when my whole body is hurting and I want to lie down and give up. I don't want your well meaning advice, I have tried so many different things to overcome the daily agony.

I hold my head high and tell you what you want to hear. I can't stand to listen to myself whine about my day to day struggle. I tell you I have it under control, even when I don't. This is normal for me, and I have been told again and again it's all in my head. Just try this pill, eat this food, exercise this way. 

I hold my head up because I don't have a choice. I don't want your pity, I don't want to try to explain why this is a daily reality for me. 

I hold my head up, and put one foot in front of the other. The alternative is to give into the pain, the struggle. I refuse to give in, I hold my head up and keep going.



Thursday, January 5, 2017

Dear Friend: Love is Given, Trust is Earned

Dear Friend,

Love is given, trust is earned. 

To love you is easy, I see the joy you bring to your life and others close to you.  You have a special place in my heart, a place not many reach. You didn't run when I showed you the cracks in my faith. Someday I might trust you with the deepest fissures in my soul. You melt my resolve with your touch, you reveal my truth with your eyes. 

We met when my heart was breaking, and my spirit was torn. I thought my heart needed to be empty in order to mend. I am truly blessed to have taken the time to reach out and find something so precious. My life is richer with your presence, I yearn for the days when I catch a glimpse of your smile and feel your arms around me.

 There is relief in knowing my heart can be full while keeping it safe from breaking again.

Just because I love you doesn't mean I trust you with my essence. I am learning to trust myself, knowing I can hold steady and observe until intentions become clear. I am learning that I can take a calculated risk and not lose it all on a long shot. 

My trust is saved for a season when you earn it, the price is time and effort. I watch, I learn, I observe how you are with me and others. Time and experience can show more than words, showing me how you choose to live in the world.